I think I'm crazy ... What do you think?

You need to stop putting so much focus on your love life and concentrate more on your school work. Men will come and go and "Ben" is not the last guy on earth; there will be plenty others trust me. Try to find a hobby and focus your attention on more positive things to try to take your mind off of him, only time will heal this wound and you will eventually find that lucky guy one day to treat you like the queen that you are.